Awesome

So I'm experiencing my first true celebrity crush. It's sort of a big deal...

Why is Brandon Flowers married with two children? Could someone please just tell me why?!

Lex and I went to The Killers concert on Saturday night and it was so amazing... simply beyond words.

Here's a little taste:

"Jack of All Trades, Master of None..."

This is what a fellow ward member said in his talk a couple weeks ago and for some reason I can't get it out of my head. It might be because it describes me perfectly.

I've grown accustomed to the notion that I am good at pretty much everything, but not excellent at anything. I'm pretty good at math, science, art, music, sports, etc. but I'm not really outstanding in any of those subjects.

This has placed me in somewhat of a predicament when it comes to choosing my major. Because I'm good at most things and I enjoy almost everything, the choice comes down to just choosing something. Pretty easy, right? But this also brings its own problems in that I may or may not be super good at it, and thereby spending all my days being mediocre at whatever I choose for a career and spending all my whole life thinking that maybe there is something out there that I am super good at. Who's to say there's not, right?

The talk the young man gave in church was on commitment. I never saw myself as having a commitment problem, but looking back on my life, I realize that maybe I do. As I recall my life I don't know that I've ever truely committed to anything. Not a single thing.

I guess now that I really think about it, I have committed to somethings:

1. The Gospel
2. Friends
3. Family
4. Billy (somewhat of a mistake)
5. Skiing (definitely not a mistake)
   

But as far as a particular skill or a school subject, I haven't truely committed to anything. I think I'm scared. I'm scared that I will be so sucked into something that I can't get out of it. I'm scared that I will spend my life committed to something and find out that it isn't what I thought it was; that I was wrong.

I think I should start making commitments. Even if I start with just one: my major. I've sort of half-committed because for one thing, it's a big decision and for another thing, I don't know if it's exactly right. But whatever the case, if I change or if I stay, I need to commit. Because as we commit to things we make structural supports to build our lives upon. This provides us with something to lean on in times of affliction or distress. Choosing not to commit is choosing to stand solitary and alone.

I'm tired of being alone.

Wishes and Dreams

For the past week, I have been doing this:
But I would rather do this:

Anticipation

I'm so excited to go skiing with my family... ( I should probably photoshop my dad in there... and I also have a brother and sister-in-law... and a nephew. Just so everyone knows.)


...and, of course, with my favorite skiing buddy...

New Purpose

Today, while at lunch with one of my friends (not Alexis) I was confronted with the question of what is fun to do at BYU/the Provo area. My mind quickly went through all the things that I do for fun. Make cakes, watch movies with Lex, go to dinner at Lexi's family's house on Sunday, go out to eat... and it stopped. Surely I must do fun things here?! What do I do?

This pitiful attempt at making a list of fun things made me realize that I need to focus on doing more fun things.

So that's the goal. If anyone is doing anything fun, let me know so I can invite myself. :)

Tiger Ears

I want one of these right now.

Theory Disproved

Title: A theory disproved: Chelsea has no "game" anymore (not that she ever really did...)

Abstract: Yesterday, September 7, 2009 goes down in history as the day that disproved a scientific theory.

Introduction: The theory: If you pretend you are interested in something that a member of the opposite sex is interested in, they will invite you to take part in that activity with them regardless if they really intend to do it.

Example:

Guy: I LOVE baseball. I go to all the BYU baseball games
Girl: Oh my gosh! I love baseball too, but I haven't been able to make it to any of the games, but I would love to go! (which may or may not be true)
Guy: We should go sometime! (which also may or may not be true)
Girl: Yeah!

There you have it.

Now the last part of the theory is important, because people don't necessarily have to do what they say they should do.

Real Life Example: Alexis and inviting people over for dinner.

If you know Alexis, you have probably been invited over for Sunday dinner with her family. When in reality, she has absolutely no intentions of speaking of it again. But this situation still coincides with the theory perfectly. It's the act of inviting, not the act of actually doing that is important here.

But last night, the theory was disproved. Big time.

Methods: Lex and I had just gotten back from a run, and were sitting on the front steps of our apartment, when an undisclosed member of our ward whom we both know came and spoke with us for a little bit. The subject turned to mountain biking (he is an avid mountain biker).

Results: I said, "Lex and I have always wanted to go mountain biking! It seems like so much fun!" This is his answer - are you ready for it?

"Well, if you ever need someone to fix your bike, I can help."

Discussion: Oh man. I had to check if my nose was broken from having the door slammed in my face so hard. My nose was still intact but my pride was another story.

Conclusions: Theory Disproved.